Diary entry

This morning I've woke up with only one thing in my mind: I'll stay in my bedroom, drinking my mint lemonde with lots of ice cubes in it and just sit, watch 90210 or just randomly write stuff down. It was a quite Saturday. With all the things that are happening lately, I can say I needed this little quiet time of my own, without being interrupted at all by anyone. Don't you just love this kind of days? When you can just relax, take your time and do whatever you want to. As I said, I didn't have any pressure on me so I guess I got a lot of time to think. I looked around me and I asked myself if this is how I imagined my life when I was just a 5 year-old kid. It obviously wasn't. Technically, none of my wishes came true. Well...except for the one when I asked for a princcess dress. That one really became true and damn, I loved it :) But now, getting back to the subject... My life was not what I was dreaming about, it's right, but I do kind of wonder if this is actually better than I wished for. It's true, there are lots of things I miss and I would love to have, but maybe, there is actually a reason for everything. Not much time ago, I've been judged way too harder than I imagined someone could judge. My way of thinking... it might be different, it's true. I agree I may have a lot of different opinions than you and yes, the word that comes to your mind right now would be "weird", but once again, remember, if someone is different than who you are, that doesn't mean they're weird. And I am not saying that just because. I couldn't believe that someone can judge another person and actually not to be constient of that. It was amazing. Here I was, standing there and thinking to myself: this is it, the fact that I was pretending to be constient of, but actually really afraid of was hell true... People do really judge and they do really judge hard. They use your weakness and then turn it against you. If there is one thing I have learned in this 14 years is to never trust anyone with your life. It sounds like a clichee, but believe me, I have experienced it for a long time and living in a house where lying was given as breakfast, I do really know what I'm saying. Don't ever let anyone bring you down, don't ever let anything fall you off apart. You are amazing the way you were born. Remember, every human being is not born for no reason and what you need to do with your life is to find out what that reason is and to accomplish it. You do only get one shot, so use it and make your world what you want it to be, not what others say it should be. Remember, it's your life here in your hands. If you want to make it right, you got to stand up for yourself.